Goddamnit why is
distance a thing that exists
in such quantity?
Goddamnit why is
distance a thing that exists
in such quantity?
One crumbling old building
says to another
crumbling old building,
“Let’s make this
fall to the first
floor really last.
Let’s make it
worthy of our
broken steel bones.”
I made these eggs
with good intentions
but even the best intentions
mistake sugar for salt
In an alternate universe,
there are Disney Princesses
auditioning for roles as
19 year old subway buskers in Brooklyn.
the dilemma of
all childhood nursery rhymes
long lost remembered
hot on the skyline
in a chase scene of sorts, to
where the sun is at
Charles Bukowski
wanted to live to
the year 2000
and be 80 years old
and fuck 18 year olds
like how he fucked
women in their thirties
in his fifties, he always
wanted to get closer
to youth when he
got closer to death,
and he died in 1994
when he was 73 years old
and he wasn’t fucking anyone.
I can always tell
you’re listening
with any varying
degree of elipses
when you open
your mouth to
not speak.
Like biking up a hill
and upon reaching the peak
feeling free
and falling
You get big and realize
how deep the river isn’t
and how deep the ocean is.
You get big and realize
how little you know about
being small, smaller than
you were when being big
was a big fucking deal.
Do not play
in, on or around
or occupy this container
for any purpose.
Containter must be placed
on hard, level surface.
Load uniformly.
Keep container on level ground
at all times and avoid tipping.
Do not fill with things
you cherish. DO NOT
bring yourself to put
this container on a pedestal.
Do not write beautiful things
on this container.
Do not let this container symbolize
anything at all.
Do not let other people load this container.
Leave it be, but your blood,
let no birds free.
This container is not a cage.
I burn black smoke,
burn black the branches
and break them,
rust the fog,
leave a trail of broken
dreams.
Fuck the wind, it leaves
yesterday’s bad smells
in my clothes.
Fuck the wind.
As I was walking
to where I wanted to be
the leaves were blowing
in front of me from behind
because my new north was
the way the wind was blowing
for the first time in my life,
my two winds were aligned
Dreams are all we get.
And even if someday they’re
Covered in that goo
we call regret, that
placenta of death, know that
once they were your life;
the future, never
the past, something you can go
back to, and have, and
maybe will before
you’re dead, because dreams are all
we get, in life, and
all that we are left,
all we have to want without
exception, sometimes,
our only regret.
Look, you know how well
I don’t respond to pinches
on the arm, it’s not
St. Patrick’s Day and
don’t wake me, yet, don’t wake me
I’m just dreaming, dreaming.